How does everything keep going?

Okay so last time I said a few things about the people that make me happy. I was thinking today as I watched TV that maybe I should take a moment and tell people who these people are and just how they make me happy. I'm gonna try to keep it to the basics and not get all mushy and crazy but unfortunately sometimes it's the only way I can describe how that person makes me feel.

1)My son, Jeremiah. Now I will be like any mother in the world and tell you just how much my son means to me. I was 23 when I had him and he is now 4 years old going on 5 this June. My life stopped being about me and started being about him the second he was born. My son was born with a cleft lip and I have never known what it was and that it was fixable. Scary shit when you're a mom. Now he did get it fixed and you can't tell but it's still something to make you worry. Now he makes me mad like any child would but no matter how mad I get or how pissed off he makes me, he's still my son and I love him more than anyone could guess. My life would be nothing without him and I could not see my life without him either. He is my everything.

2) Now this brings me next to Shannon. I make jokes saying Shannon is my other half and in a way she is. Shannon is my other half as far as a sister and best friend. We have known each other for 10 years and have had out moments of not talking but we know that when push comes to shove we will be there for each other. I will not leave her side as I know she won't leave mine. I might offend some people saying this but it's just a figure of speech: if I were a lesbian Shannon would be my better half. I don't know nor do I care if you get it. She is also my world. I love her like anyone would love a sister. We maybe not be blood related but we have been through too much to not call each other as such.

3) Now I will finish off with Dean. My younger man and the other half of my heart, if not soul. I have dated guys where after a few month I can't stand them but with Dean I can not see him for days and I'm OK with it. I'm OK with only seeing him for say 20 minutes because no matter what I'm with him and it makes me happy. I love being with him even if we don't do anything. I just love being in the same room as him. He has made so happy in the last few months that I didn't think anyone could. I no longer see myself as hopeless or ugly or fat. I see this beautiful women he makes me feel. I can be myself around him and he doesn't try to change me. He's always telling me he fell in love me the way I am and I don't need to change anything about myself for him. I know..awe! I found myself smiling more with him and actually enjoying dressing up and being a girl around him. Mostly because he makes me feel good.

So that is the three people in the world that make me so damn happy that I can't help myself. I'm even smiling now. I can honestly say I love each one of these people and don't know how my heart will deal with it if something ever goes wrong.

$Aidin$