On my mind...

I have a lot of things running through my mind right now. Mostly how my life has been going. I'm home most of the day doing school work or house work. I go to classes and I take care of my son. I try to have a social life but it's hard to have fun when you're always thinking about the things you need to do and haven't got done yet. I'm emotionally scarred by everything that has happened to me in my life just to have things spin in circles. I'm not even sure if Im making sense anymore. I'm tired and Im stressed. Me being stressed isn't a good idea.

Sometimes what i want to do is be able to to talk to my friends and watch my shows and get all my work done, both house and school, and not have to worry about how my son will react when I cant watch TV with him bc Im working on a research project or trying to finish my homework. Sometimes I wish that while I'm driving around town doing things my house work can do itself. Sometimes I wish that while I'm trying to do a test or quiz I can also watch Biggest Loser. I guess it's just a case of needing more time in the day to get everything done.

These last few weeks have been really hard. I have so much to do and no time to get it all done. Majority of the time I'm so tired I can't even keep my eyes open long enough to look at my textbook and get a quiz done. I'm so tired that I nap during the day just to catch up on sleep I've missed during the week. I dont even know how Ive managed to get up and feed myself bc my mind s on other things besides food.

I believe it wasn't for the fact that Im a mom and taking care of a 4 your old I doubt I would have the strength to get up and do the things I need to do. Jeremiah is my life, he motivates me to keep going. I'm thankful for Shannon bc she lets me complain and doesn't say anything about it. I'm grateful to Dean because he gives me the chance to escape and relax when he knows I really need it.

I dont know if anything I've said makes sense or if you understand where I'm coming from but I needed to say things. I had way too much on my mind that needed to come out.